Greenfields

I have my very first

sort of wrinkle

2020

Is the year for that too

I should be sad


I should feel old


I should invest


In “fixing” myself 


But I hate needles


More than 


Looking my age


Authenticity 


A  seemingly 


Forgotten

Aphrodisiac 



Plus

Changing my face


Feels like giving power


To fear


It feels like


Agreeing 


With some seemingly sunny


Yet sinister


Idea


That says


Youth


Is more valuable


More desirable 


Some fruitless pursuit


Of a me 


That’s  gone


At the expense 


Of the me


That is 


Not a fair trade



For a woman 


Who has done more


Than bear three beauties


To term


She


Has done more


Than make their milk


She

Has pretty consistently 


Chosen courage


To keep climbing


To abandon despair 


For Wild Hope



I’m proud of her


Not excluding 


The face 


That wears 


That weather 



While the world 


Spins mercilessly 


Madly


While we sacrifice


Seemingly all


To fear


To fabrication


To FaceBook


Wrinkles may become


A thing of the ancient past


Like eight tracks

 

Houses with out TVs


Lives


Without windows



The time may soon arrive


Perhaps


It is here already 



When humans


No longer need 


Experience


Faces


Or forty somethings 



When the slow 

Deadly scroll 

Will suffice 


Will teach 


All we care to know 


When huddled automatons 


Will brook no variables


Wrinkles

Wisdom

Or waiting


Maybe


I’m an asshole


It’s likely 


But I refuse 


To model for my daughters


Anything less


Than dangerous dissent 


To anything 


Or anyone 


That would hollow out


Their internal fire


That would demand 


Homogenous 


Salutation


That would tell them


They are anything less


Than formidable


Unique and magnificent 


Suddenly


This most important crease


Seems of infinite importance 


Seems to be more


Than a mark


Of age


Instead

It’s beauty


As it sits 


To one side


Of my smile


Softly etching 


Deeper


Every time


I don’t get a nap


Reminding me


Of my Mother


My mayhem 


The privilege 


Of years


The rarity


Of my blessed family


Consistent


Laughter


Smiles

 


The wry


Wistful rebellion 


Of my very own face

 

Kat Petras